Hey Mommies!!! I missed you!! Let me just start off by saying, me and my baby boy was in a car accident on June 25th. There were no serious injuries on either side, Thank God, but my truck needs repairs. And TJ and I are still pretty “traumatized” by the unfortunate event, yet extremely grateful for our life and health.
I requested that I take a sudden leave of absence, from a few of my responsibilities, since I’m my own boss, which is why you haven’t heard from me in a few weeks. I don’t know if you’ve ever been in an accident, and I pray you never have to experience it, but I needed a little time to sort some things out, put others in perspective, and totally regroup. And let me just tell you, it was so necessary.
Soooo here I am, back refreshed again!!! I feel like I’ve been given a new lease on life–literally and figuratively–so I’ve decided to reinstate as of late, this motto I adopted back in 2009, that has evolved over the years, of course. I’m making it my business to:
LIVE FABULOUSLY! LOVE HARDER! & LAUGH LOUDER!
I have to enjoy my life to the fullest because I know tomorrow is not promised; situations happen, sometimes out of my control, which means, some things won’t always go as planned! I deserve the best, I will not settle, therefore I do and give my best. I am what I think I am (S.E.A.M).
I’ll have problems to solve and bills to pay. Love gives and takes away, it has the power to heal and hurt, so choose it wisely. People change for the good and the bad, by choice. I can’t take myself so seriously all the time, sometimes I need to “relax, relate & release” (in my Whitley Gilbert voice). And most importantly, God loves me no matter what!
So that’s where it’s at for me, which brings me to the reason you’re here. I left you on a cliffhanger for a few weeks and you need to know what happened next. I’ll bring you up to speed, the WrOnG MiStEr I talked about in the series Part 9, 10 & 11 is officially done! Yep, the past, history, kicked to the curb, hecho, finito, fini, erledigt, 完成, in all definitions of the word and languages.
Not because he’s done something wrong again, but just because he had his chance once, blew it, and doesn’t deserve another one with me. Now don’t get me wrong, I believe in second chances, but only when people acknowledge what they’ve done, are genuinely apologetic and willing to work at fixing the issue(s) and themselves, not when they do the opposite of all of the above.
So basically when he sent that text asking if I was ignoring him, I seriously thought about my options. I knew a) ignoring him, wasn’t something I was comfortable with doing, it wasn’t nice and I probably would have felt bad about it in the end….yes, I would have, seriously. My friends know I’m not lying. I have such a huge heart, sometimes too big.
And c) give this fool man another chance because maybe, just maybe, things would be different this time around, was NOT AN OPTION! I couldn’t bring myself to do it, a-gain. I knew exactly how it was going to turn out, and I was not going to be his interim thang until they decided to get back together for the umpteenth time. Now, if it was Ryan Gosling, I would not have hesitated. It’s yes, all day, every day! He and I have an understanding (call me boo)! But for this WrOnG MiStEr, no ma’am and no sir!! “Ain’t nobody got time for that” (in my Sweet Brown voice)!!
So I made the decision to b) be nice and classy and respond, but not allow the conversation to get carried away. And that’s exactly what I did. I played it cool and let him know that I wasn’t ignoring him, I was just busy, and pretty much left it at that, for good. I haven’t heard from him in a few weeks, which means they are probably back together. And I’m certainly not mad at that, more power to them and whatever they have going on for themselves *blank stare and blinks once* just do me a favor sir and leave me out of the triangle.
Hmmm, yea, I reeeeally know how to pick them, don’t I?! LOL! No for real, I had a revelation about this exact thing during my whole introspection process over the past few weeks. It was disturbing and enlightening all at the same time. I’ve made a vow to myself and my emotional sanity to work on “it” from this point forward.
What is “it” you ask? Oh, don’t worry, I’ll tell you all about “it” next week, and just so you know, “it” involved *cues drum* don, don, don…another WrOnG MiStEr! *sighs*
Well, I’ll see you Wednesday!!! Until then my friends…